Upcoming events….
Ya piece of cheese
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| One of my favorite pic, my grandmother could DANCE!! |
Happy birthday ya old lady, you will always be 90 years YOUNG to us!!
Rosemary’s baby
Even before stupid dumb breast cancer reared its ugly head I have been a cystic girl. I have had a little dusting and cleaning done every other year just about (I think the technical term is D & C but mine is funnier). I have had 3 miscarriages and 4 babies, a tubal ligation, ablation and a scope every now and then, needless to say my girl parts have been worked over. So when I was still getting the periods after the ablation my sweet doc decided to have a look, like he hasn’t been there before! Low and be hold there are some more cysts growing like wild fire. If you saw my file at this office you would laugh, the girls can’t even fit it in the holder they have to set it on the counter. I think one uses a forklift to get it out, So these cysts (Rosemary’s baby we call them, if you have no clue what I am talking about please Google) are giving me pelvic pain, pressure, lower back pain and cramps like the devil’s child. Considering my history it is ALL coming out. My cervix, uterus, tubes, ovary…out and good riddance! I really thought this would be about 5 pounds worth of weight but it looks like its only ounces, wtf I get robbed again! Once the pathology reports come back we will know what the next steps are. Taking this one step at a time and trying not to leap forward.
Here is the truth, I am scared like a crazy lady. The uncertainty of all this makes me nuts. Plus, add the fact that they thought I just had papilloma and then told me it was stupid dumb breast cancer makes my nerves even worse. I did not realize that the surgery was 3-4 hours, well I guess when they roto rooter your vagina they need to keep you under for awhile. I have been told that my begging will not work to go home. Looks like I am sleeping over, my sister offered to stay with me but really could the hospital deal with the both of us??? Unfortunately for me this doctor and staff know me oh too well so I know I can not beg my way to going home. I need my rest they say, yeah cause getting my vitals checked every half hour is so restful. As my brother says “Don’t be difficult, try to be someone else” so I guess I will listen. The surgery itself is at the same place I had my mastectomy, I am hoping for the same attendant!! I guess I need new PJ’s, MC will you help me find some. LOL I can not find PJ’s I like, partly because I am so friggin short and the other cause I don’t normally wear them!
don’t even get me going over the menopause shit. I will be in full on menopause, hot flashes, night sweats, mood swings, my poor family. If anyone has any suggestions I will take them because I can not have hormone, breast cancer LOVES estrogen. I am wiggin out about this, I am a spaz as it is I can not image adding to this!
Overwhelming oh hell yes! So glad I got the easy cancer, huh? I am hoping for everything to be ok but the world is a crazy whacky place so you know what they say “Hope for the best, prepare for the worst”.
I went and got my eyebrows done, shoes shined
, pedi next week, hair next week, then its show time! I have the BEST shoes for this one, these are glittered out, I mean come one they are taking a LOT out. Last time I was so concerned with what underwear to wear, well this time I do not need any. If you have read my blog you know I am very inappropriate under anesthesia, can you image what will come out as they place my legs in stir ups!? Last time I had surgery with this doc I told the nurse to make sure he didn’t slip a ruffie, thanks god they had a sense of humor. Don’t worry I waxed too (Brazilian that is lmao).
Stacks for Racks…
I HAD CANCER
I am a guest blogger on the site www.ihadcancer.com
The site connects cancer fighters, supports and survivors by what type of cancer you have and where you live. You can search by age, too! It is an awesome page. PLEASE check it out….
http://www.ihadcancer.com/h3-blog/01-14-2013/Do-You-See-What-I-See
Do you want nipples to go with that?
“You have breast cancer and we will be removing your breasts. Would you like to keep your nipples?” As my head was spinning back in June from the first two statements the last was like “WTF are you talking about?” When you have a mastectomy you have the option to keep your nipples or have them removed. I choose to say good bye nips. They cannot guarantee you that they will get all the cancer cells out of them so I decided to get rid of them. Not to mention the whole idea of having them sewed onto my ass to save them was wiggity whack to me! True story, I know a woman who has a sister who had that done, BLAHAHAHAHAH!!
Only 2 refills???
So after my reconstruction my sweet plastic surgeon said “We have boxes of prosthesis nipples for you to choose from, if you would like.” A box of what?! Life is like a box of nipples you never know what you’re going to get. Sure enough they come in different sizes and colors, but alas no glittery pink ones. I see a market for this for sure. The doc needs to give you a prescription for them so do not try going down the nipple aisle at Wegman’s. Let me say you cannot pick up your prosthesis nipples at the Pharmacy at Target, you need a mastectomy store. Oh the things we learn through this process. Really sticker like, rubbery nipples, no fucking way!! But you know me and a good laugh is right up my alley. SO I brought the script to New Beginnings over in BrittionField, AWKWARD!!! The dear women that work there are older like grandmotherly and I hand them the slip of paper saying “I am here for my nipples”. “What dear speak up?!” UGH, nipples you are killing me here. They were awesome there and processed the order. I am sure the people at insurance get a kick out of running that through.
Oscar right???
At first I was like “This will make a great joke” and then I kept thinking of all the pictures Genevieve could take, ohhhhhh the possibilities are endless. When we took them out we couldn’t decide what to do first. After sticking them on things and making Oscar the Grouch. I tried them on…..WOW I look like I have real boobs. It changes your chest into real boobs, CRAZZZZYYYYY. Really it was wild how they made my boobs look well, REAL!! I totally understand why woman want these. They are not a joke at all. They build confidence and make you feel whole. They stick well too, now it’s not to guarantee they won’t fall off so beware! They instantly made me feel like I was well “normal”, do not say it. At first we didn’t think they would show but as you can see they do. I know you won’t want to “nip out” all the time but that is without a bra, just a sweatshirt, so with layers they don’t pop as much. This whole process is insane. Every step is strange, educational and scary all wrapped together. I never in a million years would think I would be writing about prosthesis nipples, holy shit! Next chapter hysterectomy, that should be interesting……..
I ride for LIFE...
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| They will never take a piece of my sould |
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| Ready and go... |
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| Getting the riders pumped |
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| NICK!! |
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| Looks like they are having FUN |
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| Listen up peeps:) |
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| My MAN |
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| Here we go.... |
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| Prep for the ride to hell |
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| A little slice of Chin |
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| My partner in crime..HANNAH |
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| The Rack Pack, they even got me a shirt:) |
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| Honey Badger don't play Nip |
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| Ready to ROCK |
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| Can you see the energy here?? |
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| And so it begins... |
I amazed at how awesome this community is. Not only did 185
riders come out to endure the sensational 6 instructors ride, but we raised
close to $5000.00!!! No joke people can I get a WHOOT WHOOT??? Part will go to Susan G. Komen Race for the
Cure under team CURE OR BUST; you can register for that race on that team NOW!!
And to help in the fight against bone cancer. This brings Stupid Dumb Breast Cancer up to almost $20,000.00 for various cancer charities. Pretty damn good for a little Italian girl from the Nort Side and her stupid dumb breast cancer. A fellow survivor took the
challenge just like she attacked stupid dumb breast cancer like a badass,
Suzanne rode for 6 hours. She left the center with a smile so I think she had a
blast! Massively huge thanks to Cor Development Company for giving us the space
to hold this event and providing snacks to the riders. Epic Outdoor Adventure
gave us water bottles to give out to the early bird registrations and to the
winning team name…….DICKS FOR CHICKS!! Six GREAT guys won and they could not
have been more proud. Thanks to Taylor for providing visors to the instructors
and the “Big Bone” rider, we missed you girl! Many thanks to every single instructor
for donating their time, the room were filled with high energy for over 6 hours!!!
Thanks to my Sam for wiping the bikes in between the rides and to my niece Jess
and cousins Rosie and Meg for their help! Even though she was only supposed to
stay for an hour my Deb (soon to be step mother!!) stayed for the whole event
and helped so much their is no way to thanks. MC got up and came out to help
but she knows I would have beaten her if she didn’t. AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST
HANNAH!!!! She helped do it all, I loved
working with her and cannot wait to plan the next ride. We are a fabulous teamJ
What is great is that after every event I am in awe at the
success! What is even better is that it pumps me up for the next one! When I
was diagnosed with this stupid dumb breast cancer I knew I was not going to
take it and just roll with it. I wanted to not only beat it but show it who was
boss! With all the donations for these events it keeps my cost to a minimum
which means the more to kick cancer into outer space. I am done sitting by and
doing nothing, I am making this what I was set out to do. I am really making cancer
learn it picked the wrong bitch. Awareness can be spread fast and furious
through these events and I am a party planner!! I hope everyone had as much fun
as we did today. Even when YNN, The Post Standard and CNY Central showed up,
check the local news tonight for sure.
http://www.cnycentral.com/news/story.aspx?id=844387
http://centralny.ynn.com/content/top_stories/627994/pedaling-for-a-purpose/
http://photos.syracuse.com/post-standard/2013/01/stupid_dumb_breast_cancer_ride_4.html
I should really take
it easy, no friggin way!! “Stacks for Racks” February 11th Trapper’s
II in Minoa. I have an event for everyone. Just you wait to see what is up my
sleeve for March, it is fabulous!!!!
Raffle winners….I feel funny using last names please contact
me if you think it is youJ
Teresa Russo bowl-Judy F
Karen Cycle/Strength-Jojo, Tony D, Teri B
Shannon Yoga-Megan B
Cor Room rental-Margret
Road Ready Spin-Kate
La Fleur Facial-Kim H
Glass bird plate-Eleanor
Bird Caddy-Kristin W
Bago of Goodies-Jill
MC Strength-Kathy S
Black Olive-Tom G
Pink Scarf-Chris B
Wild Bird Seed Ornament-Mandy
Sarah Hall Pot-Jim G
This is how we roll...
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| A sample of dinner |
New Year’s Day!!! I really cannot express how much this
day is my favorite day of the year. My entire family, siblings, aunt, dad,
cousins all in one house. We spend the day laughing, so hard that some of us
pee a little. We play games bunch of cheaters they are, I swear Lori and Heather study People magazine before! We make the kids sled
on cardboard, we are so ghetto sometimes. We reminisces of when we were young and the
pranks we played which only gives the younger kids bad ideas! We are so loud, Megan said she could her us literally down the street. We do NOT put Styrofoam in the microwave, well Tom G does but he never listens. We have to put up with my brother who in fact
is the BIGGEST PAIN. We used to have whipped cream eating contests until Mimi
said “That is violating the whip cream” and she outlawed it. We do all this
togetherJ
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| A sample of dessert |
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| Some of my fav women |
Mainly we EAT and I mean EAT. People always say to me
that their family has so much food, it is no joke what my people can make……Stuff
Squid, Shrimp, Antipasto, Fried calamari, Calamari salad, Cheese olives and
meats, Chips and dip, stuffed peppers, Garlic pizza, Wasabi and cream cheese, Pasta
and meatballs, Ham, Beef tenderloin, Lasagna, Italian wedding soup, Lentil soup,
Spinach and ricotta pie, Vodka pasta, Sweet potato casserole, Lemon jello, Cookies,
Cheesecake, Jubilee roll, Pecan chocolate pie, WHIP CREAM! Honestly that is
only what we could remember, Heather called me the other day and we were
wondering what else we could make The food is made from our hearts which makes everything taste that much better. Ok, who is still hunger cause it all comes back out right before you leave just to make sure you are stuffed to the limit. SERIOUSLY!!!!?? Some maybe having a hangover,
we have a food hang over. Totally stuffed right now and will be all week.
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| CARDBOARD |
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| Never ever come tired! |
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| A game where they all fib, perfect! |
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| How long have we been doing this? |
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| East meets West for some TROUBLE |
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| We missed you Michelle!! |
Such an important part of my life both as a child and now as a semi adult and the fact that these
people every one of them has given me hope makes my heart full. OK OK OK I know
what Elana is thinking (if she reads this which I doubt she does), “Enough with
the love shit, Jesus how long will the sap continue?” I am just so happy on NYD and
nothing not even Stupid Dumb Breast Cancer can take that from me!! Family is
the key to life, it always fits. Happy Fucking New Year and good bye 2012 do
not come back cause you suck!!
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The truth will set you free....it will piss you off first
We all make mistakes, everybody does. How we learn from them is our own choice, so choose wisely!
I started writing this when I found out it was a really a fake. I want to preface this by saying I know that help is needed. I get that, and I really hope she gets help, fast before more people are hurt. There is actually a condition for this. I have given her lots of chances to come clean but she seems to not want to face the real facts. There are people that need to stop praying for your cancer and I feel they need to know the truth. I want this said by me before the ones that are set out to hurt her take over. I do not want pain, just for this to end! Let me start at the beginning for those you do not know what cancer is like....
You get the word, the call the diagnosis "You have cancer". SHIT, are you kidding me?, am I going to die?, how did this happen?, what am I going to do? Among others, these things go through your head. Your friends and family members want so much to tell you it will be ok and they find ways to help, but if they never had cancer then they just do not really get it. So, it is 2012 and social media is at your fingertips (get it? cause you type, LOL). You search Google, you look at FB, hit Twitter then stop at Instagram. WOW, you find so many cyber friends all feeling those intense feelings. All going through the war against this disease that is taking rank on your body without your permission. You become friends with so many, now I do not mean "friends", I mean you cry with them, laugh and want them to be well. When a blogger friend died this year I sobbed, like a painful sob that I just lost a friend. The connection is real and strong, we call it "CANCER CONNECTION". The fact is we all need this so bad, not just for the advice and words of encouragement but to see we are not alone. I want to meet all these fighters, in Sweden, Netherlands, Canada, Italy, South Carolina, Florida, all over I want to meet, hug and cry with everyone! When I sent them their stupid dumb breast cancer shirt it made me so proud that they would honor me that way.
So do you get how important these friends are, so important. We post pictures to let each other know who we are doing, when the next surgery or treatment are, to make us laugh and sometimes to cry. Enter Katie, so sick with bone cancer. Telling us how she needs this next surgery to survive but the surgery is so scary. Showing us ALL her meds she takes. Pictures go up because she is back in the ER and is scared as hell. Telling us that she cannot go on she accepts death. Pray for her please. We did we pray, sent her so much encouraging words she must have been so happy. We told her we were here for her, told her our own personal struggles. Opened up so she knew she could trust us. Sent her a stupid dumb breast cancer shirt just because I care so much and wanted to lift her spirits, no charge Katie I know how poor you are. I cried cause she was so ill and I wanted to help her. Our heart was heavy for our friend battling and needing support. UNTIL.....
She was a cancer fake and so were her pictures. Her head was shaved for St. Baldrick's then to make it look like you lost it. These are the facts, we do not need to give it more than that.
I reached out to her before I did anything else. I gave her the chance to come to me for help. All she had to do was admit her lies to me. I hope everyone just stops and leaves her alone. She is getting help. Yes it was a lie that got out of control. But I am done trying and I really believe she needs to be exposed. Not to hurt her, because I believe she needs some major help, but to let those who she is seeking attention from know that she does not have CANCER. I am not trying to hurt her, but I am looking out for my friends who she is hurting with her lies, real friends who do not lie to each other! I also feel like this will help her. It will release her from the lie and I hope that she stops. I want her to move past this and get on with life. Those of us fighting right now will never understand why she did this, but I am done trying to figure it out. Katie says she has health issues, I just want her to get better. I want her to have peace.
I am asking everyone to not be mean or nasty, just delete her from your Instgram, FB, twitter and anywhere else. Stop the negativity and just move past this. Say your peace with her but do not add to this horrible lie. Katie needs her family to help her, she needs support that we can not give her unless she chooses to stop running and lying. For now we need to let her run away and let us not look back. Nobody needs hate mail, emails, texts or such. She was so wrong, but during the holidays, shouldn't we have a little compassion? So get pissed, but be the bigger person and let it go, let her go. Does being mean ever make you feel better? Say something nice or nothing at all. But karma has away to taking care of it all.
